stop selling me your damn snake oil!!!
once again the same topic i can't seem to recover from. what's the point in beating the dead horse? "love me again! look at me again!" won't make anything different. i think he must be happy that i'm feeling this way, and that i will for a very long time. it took hatred and desperation for him to realize the effect he has on me?
every single day i tell myself that after all i've done how he feels about me is his business and i can't control something like that. but i was a part of his business once upon a time! i was his top priority! i'll admit to it, i'm nothing without him! go ahead and take my number one prize away from me, see what becomes of me!!!
so, many google searches later, such as “why does he hate me” and “how to make somebody like u” and “painless suicide methods” the consensus gave me the same feeling all across the board. it’s all pretty good advice to follow—communicate with him! you can't make anybody like you by force, work on self-improvement so it happens naturally! call a hotline you wound-licking fuck! and in all honesty i don't want to do any of those things.
all i want from you is something that matters. love me hate me it doesn't matter one bit anymore! the only thing you can't possibly do is ignore me!